I Won’t Let the Fear of Injury Keep Me Off My Horse
When I look back at all the physical activities I used to do growing up, it’s hard to believe I was never scared of injuring myself.
I can no longer imagine myself in the thick of a physical soccer game without also thinking about getting hurt. Back then, I was constantly being injured, and the bruises I had were unreal.
Although I knew something was likely wrong, I didn’t know what it was, or that I had a high risk of severe injury and I’d have a difficult time healing because of it. When I was finally diagnosed with Ehlers-Danlos syndrome (EDS), my perspective changed.
Falls sometimes happen
I’m so grateful I can ride and work with horses. I even work two part-time jobs in addition to another full-time job to be able to do so. While my EDS makes this physically taxing and exhausting, the trade-off is worth it.
A few weeks ago, I fell off my mare, Cherry. She’s usually very laid-back, and one of the reasons I bought her as a competition horse was because of how safe she is to ride. Still, falls sometimes happen, even on the best of horses. I wear an air vest for safety when I jump or ride cross-country, and it provides great protection.
I wasn’t injured in the fall, but I was scared to ride cross-country again.
Cherry has been rehabbing from injury for almost 18 months, and the same day the veterinarian cleared her to go back to work last year, I shattered my finger, resulting in six screws and a plate in my right hand.
It had been nearly two years since Cherry and I had last run a horse trial, which consists of dressage, stadium and show jumping, and cross-country. A good event horse loves getting out and galloping during cross-country, and Cherry is no exception. She was excited for our first run back — unfortunately, a little too excited. When I asked her to slow down, she got upset, and I fell.
Finding our footing
I wasn’t worried about getting back on her, and I’ve been riding her at home without any trouble or fear. But I did worry about going back to cross-country, because I knew she’d be excited. And with EDS, I know I could be injured, which scares me. Last weekend, I was so scared of getting hurt that I got sick to my stomach.
Of course, Cherry got sassy and I got scared. A friend hopped on her for me to help settle her down while I took some deep breaths. I reminded myself that I’m a capable rider and that I have a great horse that needs me to trust her to do her job well and not stress about every little thing.
Despite dreading going back out and running a course, I did it. Yes, I can be stubborn, but I kept telling myself I could do it, and that Cherry wanted to do her best for me. I managed to silence my fear of being injured, and after a moment or two, we were on our way. By the time we reached the halfway point, I realized I was no longer just trying to breathe and was actually remembering why I love this sport so much.
I will not let EDS hold me back or get in the way of what I want to do, if I can help it.
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